Nobody agrees on how to treat one another, because everybody treats each other differently and selectively. Everybody treats us differently, and everybody looks at us differently, whilst we look at each person differently. Even if there are two people who resemble each other in every aspect, there'll still be something that will make 'Censu' actually 'Censu', and 'Wenza', actually 'Wenza'.
We know all this, but yet, we forget it constantly. At least, I do. We constantly fail on expecting others to treat us in a certain way, we fail on treating some people in a certain way... We have our own world, our own rules, and we live by them. Our rules of what constitutes a nice person, love, justice are different, and yet, we feel that they should be the same. The disagreements arise when there is a discrepancy in these expectations, and more than that, when we fail to understand the reason behind these discrepancy's... yet we try, constantly and relentlessly to find the reason why these discrepancy's exist.
Obviously, we fail.
We will never ever know some answers, we will never find the reasons, and we will never be happy until we accept this.
Maybe, my unhappiness lies in this. I try to find a reason for everything, and many times, I fail.
I feel hurt, abandoned, and horribly confused at times. Not understanding the reason behind some people's behaviour many times is a matter of not accepting this persons behaviour because I try to compare her standards to mine.
Why am I writing all this, I don't know. It's definitely not for me, cos I'll never learn anything out of this knowledge. I'll keep on repeating and failing in doing the same mistakes, and being unhappy even with the knowledge of all this.
I go to sleep. No wiser than I was one hour ago, however, relieved in managing to write a blog, knowing that some wisdom still lies here. But as Abba say, 'but oh man, is a fool'.
We're all fools. Maybe that is something that binds us together.
